18/12/2011

doesnt matter past or present , you still will never make time for me even if i went down to see you. you rather let some friend who goes to your work place often to send you home rather than me, who comes once in a twilight. wow the importance is shown, even as a friend i lose out badly , as a boyfriend im worst.

no place for me at all, you can even assume that i have a girlfriend when it was andrew and our friend prank called you. i was hoping you would bother to know what is happening, because the prank was that i had lost my phone. i wanted to see how much you still care for me... guess you dont care le ba? you just hanged the phone in an instance without hesitation, even if i lost my phone it means nothing to you. you can even tell me you have seen my true colours? just assume whatever you want like always , because you feel better that way isnt it? anything that makes you feel better you just take it isnt it?

you didnt know the main reason why i was at orchard didnt you? heres the main reason i hide from everyone, i wanted to see you, i missed you...yet you wouldnt even look me into the eye and just walked off as if you came out just to merely entertained me...



128ve980 - long forgotten , buried as a past

18/12/2011

doesnt matter past or present , you still will never make time for me even if i went down to see you. you rather let some friend who goes to your work place often to send you home rather than me, who comes once in a twilight. wow the importance is shown, even as a friend i lose out badly , as a boyfriend im worst.

no place for me at all, you can even assume that i have a girlfriend when it was andrew and our friend prank called you. i was hoping you would bother to know what is happening, because the prank was that i had lost my phone. i wanted to see how much you still care for me... guess you dont care le ba? you just hanged the phone in an instance without hesitation, even if i lost my phone it means nothing to you. you can even tell me you have seen my true colours? just assume whatever you want like always , because you feel better that way isnt it? anything that makes you feel better you just take it isnt it?

128ve980 - long forgotten , buried as a past

17/12/2011

here i was waiting for a never coming dream to come true...i actually waited for it... treating it as the best christmas present,yet it ends up as a blank cheque as always...when will you start putting away your things and spare some time for me... you will never do that will you? not even once

I'm sorry that i make you lose your world.whatever i try to do just cannot change anything.whenever i sms you ,you give me cold replies?what else can i do?i want to talk on the phone with you yet you said nothing?we seems to change.not as good as last time anymore..i really hate you keep saying about ryan.but you're just not willing to stop it no matter how angry i am.am i right?i saw all your fb posts and i hope you will be happy (:

Hey!this seems like becoming my blog to say what i don't wish to keep in my heart!hehe!hope you will never ever see this.i had been very busy with work and is very tiring .i only can use work to forget about you.i hope you enjoy your xmas! (: i will be working on xmas so that's it !haha

Love,Devil

you finally get to become a girl only for him le ba :) yay you ...no matter how hard i try to get you back, you will just say no right? even meeting up for a simple dinner proves to hard to be true haha...i've changed? arent you sick of it , keep saying that i have changed? when your the one changing towards that guy?

so what if i need you, so what if i still love you, so what if i still wanted you back as my laopo...you wouldnt give coming back to me a chance le ba?

ever since having him in that picture, you just erased my existance off like it was nothing.say that i dont message , you dont care about you. when i did, where were you? busy? shopping for your clothes for the entire week? just sacrificing abit of time for me seems impossible for you, messaging me seems to be a waste of time for you isnt it.

promised that you be that for the outings end up as a lie, a big big lie. my only chance of meeting you, yet you crushed it as if it was nothing... wow, its always about you isnt it? having everyone to orbit around you, i made you my world, but when you left, you left me with nothing, nothing at all. void , loneliness, hatred, rage ,sadness all this emotions made me feel like giving up the whole damn world but you wouldnt care less now wouldnt you? all you need was your ryan all this year isnt it...but all i needed was you but you dont seem to notice it not even now.

so what if you notice now, you wouldnt leave him for me wouldnt you. you told you cant love me because you have him in your heart, but you can go back to him with "me" in your heart? wow , so much for values, you told me how worthless i became over the year, you proved to me i am worst than me you destroyed my world....when i asked for you to save me you would rather stay with him, when he ask for you to save his world, you went there without thinking about me.

i hate it, i hate him, i hate everything...most importantly i hate myself for believing in giving in to the other partner , i would find true love....believing in something as fake as true love is as good as believing in the non-existence god, prayed as i may, prayed as i might, i prayed for your return but it never did happen...

since the day you left , you left with the faith and colours of life, nothing left . no love, no glory,no life....

128ve980 i need you , but you wouldnt ever come back for my sake even if i pleaded wouldnt you.

who are you?i kept asking myself.you changed..haha.my fault anyway!but don't worry .you'll never ever see me again.i'm gone just like you did.no more wan ting in lv outings ,or whatever.bye ! (:

End,Devil