you finally get to become a girl only for him le ba :) yay you ...no matter how hard i try to get you back, you will just say no right? even meeting up for a simple dinner proves to hard to be true haha...i've changed? arent you sick of it , keep saying that i have changed? when your the one changing towards that guy?

so what if i need you, so what if i still love you, so what if i still wanted you back as my laopo...you wouldnt give coming back to me a chance le ba?

ever since having him in that picture, you just erased my existance off like it was nothing.say that i dont message , you dont care about you. when i did, where were you? busy? shopping for your clothes for the entire week? just sacrificing abit of time for me seems impossible for you, messaging me seems to be a waste of time for you isnt it.

promised that you be that for the outings end up as a lie, a big big lie. my only chance of meeting you, yet you crushed it as if it was nothing... wow, its always about you isnt it? having everyone to orbit around you, i made you my world, but when you left, you left me with nothing, nothing at all. void , loneliness, hatred, rage ,sadness all this emotions made me feel like giving up the whole damn world but you wouldnt care less now wouldnt you? all you need was your ryan all this year isnt it...but all i needed was you but you dont seem to notice it not even now.

so what if you notice now, you wouldnt leave him for me wouldnt you. you told you cant love me because you have him in your heart, but you can go back to him with "me" in your heart? wow , so much for values, you told me how worthless i became over the year, you proved to me i am worst than me you destroyed my world....when i asked for you to save me you would rather stay with him, when he ask for you to save his world, you went there without thinking about me.

i hate it, i hate him, i hate everything...most importantly i hate myself for believing in giving in to the other partner , i would find true love....believing in something as fake as true love is as good as believing in the non-existence god, prayed as i may, prayed as i might, i prayed for your return but it never did happen...

since the day you left , you left with the faith and colours of life, nothing left . no love, no glory,no life....

128ve980 i need you , but you wouldnt ever come back for my sake even if i pleaded wouldnt you.